keep on keeping on

She keeps believing, keeps believing.

But he never turns up.

He never comes for her, like he promised he would.

But she waits.

She trusts.

Trusting for something that will never happen.

And everyone knows that.

Everyone except her.

I'm quickly going blind from all that proof-reading

...and coming down with a bad throat from all that chocolate I'm chugging.

...and chugging,

and chugging,

and still chugging.

This is what happens when you're feeling lower than a grasshopper's knees.

Thanks for breaking my heart.

it's thought like these that get to me

It's not that I'm fickle and change one too many boyfriends almost all the time. It's not that I want to go around breaking hearts and crushing dreams. And most of all, it's not that I want a taste of every guy before I decide to settle for one, or maybe never. Maybe that was the case for me, back then- 4 years ago. But things change. People change. And now, I want to be in love, and to stay in it. I want to commit. I want to know what it feels like to have my whole world built on that one person, and just knowing at the corners of my mind that it will never fall apart. Or at least it wouldn't go without a mighty fight first.

I just...I just want.

"And I hold you close in the back of my mind. Feels so good but damn it makes me hurt."

- La Cienega Just Smiled, Ryan Adams

At some point in your life, you just stop and wonder if that person's even worth the journey, the risk and the hurt. You think so. But you end up dead wrong. And you wish you had stayed true to yourself. That's when regret seeps in. Something you vowed never to live to see.

...some kind of stalker bitch she is.